I know I am not hopeless. I know I am not stupid. I do believe in myself and I do believe I am capable of conquering any task I am handed. 

But you know what is stupid? 

Forcing myself to do something that I find no particular joy in. 

I already know what I would rather be doing… but according to the world it is considered as a decision leading to nowhere. Might as well endure the struggle for a few more months. Eventually I’ll be free to pursue what gives me hope in the world.